Few Words

My dad is in pretty bad shape. I talked to him last night. I've completely run out of positive things to say. I have always tried to take comfort in small improvements or hope in change but that well is dry. My vocabulary is pretty limited to "I'm sorry", "That's awful", and "I'll be thinking of you". I've been so detached and depressed about all the stupid little things in my life and I feel incredibly selfish and petty. My dad has told me my whole life that with his health problems he would never make it to old age and as much as that always disturbed me he always said it with such ease. Now that his body is shutting down it's different, there are no easy words for that. It's just hard.