I'm having trouble blogging due to the fact that I don't have as much Internet access these days.

Friday night I went to the Railroad Revival Tour to see Old Crow Medicine Show, Edward Sharpe & the Magnetic Zero, and Mumford & Sons. I loved all the instruments on the stage. There were banjos, and fiddles, and horns, and an accordion. It was nice to get a range of sounds. Then I drove up to Lompoc to spend the weekend with my mom. Her birthday fell on Easter this year which is the first time I can ever remember that happening. It is still so sad and hard to go home. Instead of hiding in my apartment I am trying to fill my life with distractions. I feel like there is this hole in my heart where once there was something at it just isn't there anymore. I try and fill it up with good things and feelings but it just slips through. Trying to hold on to happiness right now is like caring water in your hands.

weekend

Sometimes you are a sad kitty in a bucket and you realize all your post are just going to be about being a sad kitty in a bucket. I promise I'm going to try and get out of that bucket.