Wanted

I found this vintage coat on etsy. It is so beautiful. It cost faaaaaaar more then I would ever be willing to pay for it. It is so lovely though. *sigh*

Nothing

I dreamt that I went to a dinner party where the guests drank all the wine before I was able to have any then they sent me to get more because I was the only one that could drive. When I got back to the party they had eaten all the dinner. That was the worst fictional party EVER. jerks

Christmas 2009

Runaway

My nose has not stopped running sense I got up this morning. How on earth do I still have anything left in there? I look like a red nosed reindeer.

Fair Thee Well

Today I went to the farewell party for the Hollywood House. The Hollywood House has been the party zone for many years now. I have been lucky to be part of it just in the last 3 or so years. This is me pretending to cut down club driveway. I didn't really help haha. I was sad to see the house go. Truly an end of an era.

oh no

Oh no! I feel like I'm getting sick. My throat is so scratchy and I'm so tired. My boss called in sick today too. I am so terrified of getting sick after my last illness in August. I just can't go through something like that again. I really thought I might die. It also brings back all the shitty awful memories of my relationship that blew up in my face at the same time as my illness. I know a little head cold isn't so bad but I'm seriously terrified of being sick after that. I just ate a ton of C and I'm going to bed so early. Oh please please please, no more sickness.

What a Drag

If I dressed in drag I bet I would look like Harry Houdini.

It Put the Lotion in the Basket

I feel like I got a great workout tonight for the first time in a REALLY long time. It feels amazing. I don't feel gross and sad and lethargic. I feel great. I need to really remember this feeling next time I'm "too tired" or moody to workout. Other inspiration was the woman right next to me in the locker room I couldn't help but notice who had the most amazing body I've seen. I felt like I was being filmed secretly sense she was standing inches from me in nothing but blue undies lotioning herself up, like I just walked into a sexy movie and I was blocking the shot. But hell if I was her I would probably spend a good deal of time just running around in nothing too haha, she earned it.

Staged

Despite the car issues and all that went along with that this week had some pretty fun times. On Wednesday night I went to see Grand Guignoler ABSINTHE OPIUM & MAGIC: 1920s SHANGHAI show which was so much fun.

It was a cocktail and/or vintage attire 1920s luxury cruise to Shanghai themed night. With a pre-show of Flashlight Follies, and absinthe & tea tastings. The first act were Sing Song girls (Chinese geishas) and The Green Gang in Sing Song Girl Sing Last Song, a dancing/brawling movement based melodrama. My favorite was the absinthe fueled hallucinations of The Sorcerer’s Apprentice skit that included a giant murderous bunny. There was also a puppet act that was hilarious. It is petty hard for me to briefly sum this up but it was so entertaining and I will for sure check out other shows by this theater group. The show is running through Jan 3rd and I totally recommend it. http://www.grandguignolers.com/

On Thursday night I caught Frank's "Lost Moon Radio" Christmas show. It was so funny and the first Christmasy thing I've done this year. Here is one of the songs from the show. So funny. There are a few more shows left I also totally recommend catching this


Then last night I went to Amanda's annual wine and cheese party. It is one of my favorite events all year and I had such a delightful time.

She's Crafty

I need to catch up on this blog. Until then here are some photos crafting at Lindsey & David's new house.

i'm a modern girl but i fold in half so easily

So I had a mini panic attack last night that was brought on by several things. I didn't get all that much sleep and then I had to get up so early for the bus. I am so tired today and I have tickets tonight for an event and tickets tomorrow night for an event and I am so very tired and stressed. I will try to have fun.

I get a little warm in my heart

I bought a stunning white fur hat that was worn by a lady on her winter wedding day in 1967 today. She was so excited that I bought it. It is the most romantic thing I own and I love it.

Walking

Todays applied photo lessons in semi-automatic photography aka what I saw on my walk to get change for the bus tomorrow.

Plan of Action

1. Make giant pot of tea.
2. Stop crying.
3. Watch movie.

good plan

Steer Clear

Well, looks like my power steering has failed for unknown reasons. They are ordering a new one for me put it won't be in till tomorrow or the next day which means I have to take public transit to and from work tomorrow. I have had nothing but awful experiences taking the bus and my lack of sense of direction is so bad that making all those transfers is stressful. Oh god I hate taking the bus in ways that make it hard to breathe.

Old Dog Meets New Trick

I should be at work right now but alas I am at home. Getting in my car this morning my steering wheel locked up on me. Luckily I was only a block from the dealership and was able to get it there. Feeling pretty good about that extended warranty right now. I'm stuck at home until they call me. I feel like I've spent more time away from work on car repairs over the years then I have on vacation time. Which is only because I've only taken 2 weeks off work sense graduation. Which I'm perfectly aware is not healthy.

Anyways I am spending this time reading about the manual side of my camera right now. I have been using it on automatic lately. The problem with manual and turning off the automatic settings is the assumption that I know better then my camera does on what settings to use, which I don't, my camera is much much smarter then me. But then I also know I will never become smart enough to know what creative settings I would like unless I start using manual modes. I think it has been far too long sense I learned a new skill and I am a bit rusty, sad.

Sketchbook

I didn't make it to any of the parties I meant to go to this weekend. I'm feeling the December around me. I do enjoy the sunset I made.

Hidden Treasure

I've heard may great things over the years about Hidden Treasures vintage shop in Topanga. I'm never in the area so I've never gone before. I decided to make the drive up there today and boy am I glad I did. It was a beautiful drive and the store is great. They have so many good things and thier prices are pretty good. I bought this dress because the colors reminded me of the dress from An Education. It has some really cool seams on the bodice. I also bought this washy printed silk scarf. The dress was $15 and the scarf $4.

I am so tired I'm thinking about bedtime at 7:30. Today the company closed its doors and anyone who wanted to go to the memorial was invited to take the bus to Santa Barbara. I wished to pay my respects so I go on the bus super early this morning and just now got home. It was a beautiful day and a very moving memorial. I am exhausted. So much so that on my way home I took the wrong way on La Brea and didn't notice until I was almost in Inglewood.

Twins

I want to know more about this!

Crunchies & Munchies

I use to be addicted to potato chips. I would have them everyday. Sense I moved out of my parents house and bought my own groceries I kicked the habit though I do love them. I find it so satisfying to crunch on chips. Lately my nasty chip habit has been coming back, I want them all the time.

Goodbye

I don't like to talk about work here because you never know who is reading and what lines you may be crossing. But I feel like I really need to share this. First thing this morning everyone got called into our conference room. I've actually never been in a room with all our departments before. I knew whatever was going to happen next wasn't going to be good. Our CFO announced that the owner of our company passed away last night. There was a gasp and then weeping. So sad. We was an amazing man, a true gentleman if I have ever met one. It was a very somber day at work. Knowing there is one less amazing person in this world makes in seem that much smaller and lonelier.

This is the dress I got in SB yesterday. I love it!

When I was little I really wanted to be Brittany in the Chipettes, but I sort of knew that I was really Eleanor.

Thanks

Well, I certainly ate like a fat little piggy this Thanksgiving weekend. On Wednesday night I went over to Terry's for some wine and games. On Thursday I went to Jeff, Laurel, and Frank's for Thanksgiving dinner complete with The Chipmunk Adventure movie. Man I love that movie. Friday morning I drove up the coast to Lompoc to celebrate Thanksgiving with my mom and dad. We spent the day at Pismo Beach on Saturday. Then today I drove back to LA with a stop in my old favorite vintage store in Santa Barbara and bought an awesome dress. I would say that it has in a successful long weekend.

Childish

I'm fully aware of when I act out like a child that just wants attention even if it's not good attention. I can even stop myself from acting out. What I can't seem to stop is the nagging desire to act out. I absolutely hate when it comes out of me in the form of passive aggressiveness. There is not much I hate more then passive aggressive people and it kills me when I see myself acting that way. This post was inspired by me almost doing something extremely passive aggressive but I stopped myself. Right now I'm in check. I need to drink my tea and watch the last disc of the second season of Mad Men. Time Out as an adult is so much more fun then when someone else got to decide my punishment when I was little.

*Oh shit! It has just been pointed out to me elsewhere that I am not passive aggressive at all and that I'm aggressive passive. That is so dead on.

Oh dear god, I can NOT stop listening to this song! So goooooood!!!

Changing

The before and after of getting ready.

educational

Amanda, Erin and I went to see An Education last night. It is a wonderful movie.



Lead actress in it Carey Mulligan is so damn charming to watch.



Afterwards we went out to eat and I got nachos. Wonderful yummy nachos. nachos!

Zoo Boo

I've never hear great things about the LA zoo but I thought I'd check things out myself yesterday. Now I have to sort of agree. It is a depressing place. The whole set up and the upkeep of the zoo is just sad. Next time I want to go to the zoo I will just have to track down to San Diego. Oh how I love the San Diego zoo. The animals there actually look pretty happy.

The Giving Tree is Really a Fucked Up Story

So far I've bought 2 Christmas gifts. I'm finally doing what I say I'm going to do every year and fail at...start early. I even know what I'm going to get the parents and my brother, though I haven't done it yet. I want to do this and not stress out about it this year and feel like my gifts are last minute fail. Also, spreading the hurt out over a few paychecks helps. I do love giving thoughtful gifts and wish I could financially give more. I give when I can. Sometimes it isn't in the monthly budget and that makes me sad. Hope I've never made anyone feel left out.

I Should Get Your Number

Damn! I didn't know that that nerdy guy in the movie Garden State, Karl, that works in the store where they return the knifes and is involved in some sort of detergent pyramid scheme was married to Mad Men's Joan Holloway. Facts!

Mad About Joan

I just finished watching Mad Men Season 1 and liked it so much I bumped up season 2 and hopefully will be getting it in the mail today. I am so obsessed with Joan Holloway! She is just the most incredible looking woman. I wish I could be Joan when I grow up but sense we are probably the same age I don't think that is going to happen.
*edit* I just looked this up. She is 6 years older then me. Hmmmm, I have 6 years to get my act together haha

Oh Baby

Looking at some old photos, man was I not a cute baby. It's okay, things got better around the 9 month mark.

Happy Days

This is my new motto. I need to get this baby framed.

I feel like I use to be more confident, I'd like to get that back. I'm not really sure how though.

I also feel like this blog has gotten bad. I'd like to work on making that better as well. I wonder who reads this thing anymore. I guess the less people read it maybe the more honest I can be and I haven't been terribly honest here. Not that I lie, I just leave out so much. Though I leave out even more in person. I'm not an open book.

These Precious Things

Last night I was leaving Frank's birthday party and winding through the twists of Laurel Canyon Rd when I came around the corner to find the taxi that was a few seconds ahead of me crashed. It was just stopped in the lane with glass everywhere. The silhouette of the driver was still and limp. The truck that had crashed into it was on the sidewalk on the other side. There was only 2 lanes of traffic so I was stuck behind it. Some people were already pulled over and helping. The giant truck behind me was flashing its high beams at me to move. I'm not really sure where he expected me to move to, what a jerk. Finally I was able to get around. Its funny because I had this sense of dread all day like something terrible was going to happen. If I had left the party 10 seconds earlier then I could have been that unconscious silhouette in the car surrounded by glass.

Today I walked over to the Arclight to watch "Precious." I got so angry at the rich white people that sat next to me and snickered at parts that weren't suppose to be funny just culturally and economically different then them. They also made "ewwww" sounds at her weight. I'm still so angry about this. What did they think the movie was going to be like? I started feeling dirty, like they were at the zoo watching the animals.

Heart of a Lion

Let Me In

Slowly Dying

I have not dyed my hair sense I had it done almost 2 months ago. I loved the color so much. I thought about getting it touched up by a professional but right now I need to save some cash. I have an inch of somewhere in the ashy land between blond and brown roots and something had to be done. So I am sitting here right now with hair dye on my head. I hope whatever is going on under that cap doesn't ruin my hair. For the first time I am totally happy and satisfied with my hair and it would be nice to remain so. I mean I won't have the same highlights and lowlights but I hope it is still pretty.

The Times They Are A Changing

I can't believe I'm still not mentally in the time change yet. I want to go to bed every night by 10. I just want to eat a ton of food and hibernate for the winter. And yes I know that it is neither cold nor winter. I am a sleepy bear that needs time to cuddle my blankets.

Fuck you Katy Perry! I never liked you and now you took my dress and turned it into an ill fitting trampy gown. Booo, booo to you!

In The Garden

Lets see weekend, what did we do together? On Saturday I woke up and stayed in bed and watched Anvil the documentary. I enjoyed it a lot and it was fun knowing that the singer is Ali's uncle, I got to see her family which was cool. Then I headed to Long Beach which I haven't been to in years, wait no I did go to the aquarium last year (oh duh, I go to the flea market there all the time I'm not thinking). They have a bunch of vintage shops on 4th street which a vender was telling me about and I checked them out. I was mostly looking for things for work and didn't end up getting anything except a coffee and muffin at the coffee shop on the corner. Then I came home and bummed around and watched the Brothers Bloom which had some parts I liked but I think movies about cons and then who's conning who but wait is this a con or is the con artist being conned really start to annoy me and I felt like they were trying to hard. Then in the evening I went to a bar called Tee Gee, or something to that effect, for Byron's 30th birthday. I didn't eat anything before I went because the taco truck ladies were coming and I thought I could get a taco with no meat. They ended up only having meat and tortillas. I was so hungry I ate a tortilla with salsa on it. The salsa was so hot that it burned my mouth and I couldn't feel my tongue anymore. I wasn't in the most social mood and still hungry so I just ended up sneaking out early. Today I went to the Rose Bowl flea market and then to the Huntington gardens all which were nice but for some reason I just wasn't in the mood for either. I think I will read and watch my last netflix tonight in my last remaining hours of the weekend.