I haven't been keeping this blog up at all. Mostly I really feel like complaining and bitching about stupid superficial things and I just stop myself from posting that because I don't want to be so negative. I feel like I need a pep talk and pick me up. I feel like I have a lot of things bottled up and a lot of frustration in general. This is not to say that I haven't been doing lots of fun things and having a great time. I feel like I've come to a crossroad where that really isn't good enough to keep me going and I need something new and fulfilling. I just don't have a plan and I'm really not doing anything to solve this.