I Voted

I love voting day! Not that I ever vote for anyone that ever wins but I will never give up hope.

Skinny Dipping

I'm sure I dropped some weight this past week because I've eaten next to nothing. I just was never hungry and asleep all the time. I know that I need to eat right in order to get healthier and I have started to yesterday and today. Anyways, about 4 different people came up to me today and were like "Oh my God you look skinny." I'm also extremely pale and I just look tired and sickly. So my automatic response is "Oh, thank you!" Yeah, the thing is they are saying I look sickly and I'm thanking them because as a female when someone says you look thin it registers as a complement which might not be the healthiest way of thinking. On a thinness note I am wearing pants that I got last April. This is when I really f-up my ankle bad and I could barely walk for months and got zero exercise, thus put on a little bit of weight. When I first got them (they were given to me, I didn't buy them) they were so tight around my hips and butt that I had to lay down to zip them up. Today,post illness, I noticed I could pull them on and off without even unzipping or buttoning them. Weird, I don't really feel that much different in size. Anyways, I plan on going home tonight and eating a good healthy meal and hopefully tomorrow night I will be strong enough to venture back to the gym. I hate feeling weak and I am extremely weak right now.

Pussy Doodles!

Lifted from the Fog

Feeling tons better today. I'm still not 100% healthy but I feel like my head has cleared up a lot. Days of being weak and not being able to think straight made me feel crazy. Today I feel like I've recovered a great deal of my sanity back. I was also hungry for the first time in about a week. Also, um it's February? geez, when did that happen?

The News From My Bed

I haven't been this sick in over a decade. I usually get a head cold for a day or two and get over it, and that happens maybe once a year. This is the the first time sense I'd say high school where I have been totally out of commission in bed for days sick. I was sick all this week but it has gotten pretty bad. I have been held up in my apartment sense early Thursday evening. I briefly left the apartment today to go to the bank, just so I would go outside. I came home exhausted and took a two hour long nap. I'm hardly ever home so spending this much time at home makes me feel restless. I'm also starting to feel like I'm the only person left on Earth. I like living alone but living alone when your sick is kind of depressing and lonely. On the positive side my throat isn't soar today which is a good sign and my cough as died down a little. I've also gotten a lot of reading done. I finished reading The Golden Compass and have started reading The Subtle Knife. I can't believe I'm only half way through reading 'His Dark Material', I feel like I have been reading it forever. It is a really good sick in bed read though. I'm just really tired of being sick in bed though. I want to wake up tomorrow and magically be all better. My head feels like it is as light as a feather and as heavy as a bag of bricks all at once.

A Million Little Pieces

Last night I woke up around 3am and crunched down on something hard in my mouth shattering the object. I freaked out thinking I just crushed one of my teeth into little bits a pieces. I woke up enough to realize that I had fallen asleep with a half eaten cough drop in my mouth that some how didn't fully dissolve. Thinking there were little bits and pieces of my crushed tooth in my mouth was terrifying though.

Germy

I am home sick today. I can't remember the last time I was home sick. It is awful. Go away germs!!!